April 2008


Cut it out- your self-inflicted pain
Is getting too routine
The crowds are catching on
To the self-inflicted song
Well, here we go again
The art of acting weak
Fall in love to fail
To boost your cd sales
(and that cd sells- yeah, what a hit)
Youve got to repeat it
You gotta sink to swim
If at fist you dont succeed
You gotta recreate your misery
cause we all know art is hard
Young artists have gotta starve
Try, and fail, and try again
The comforts of repetition
Keep churning out those hits
til its all the same old shit

Oh, a second verse!
Well, color me fatigued
Im hiding in the leaves
In the cd jacket sleeves
Tired of entertianing
Some double-dipped meaning
A soft serve analogy
This drunken angry slur
In thirty-one flavors
You gotta sink to swim
Immerse yourself in rejection
Regurgitate some sorry tale
About a boy who sells his love affairs
You gotta fake the pain
You better make it sting
Youre gonna break a leg
When you get on stage
And they scream your name
Oh, cursive is so cool!

You gotta sink to swim
Impersonate greater persons
cause we all know art is hard
When we dont know who we see

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself that I’d already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself

‘Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said that “Love is watching someone die”

So who’s going to watch you die?..

My god, not me, but beautiful………………